Alone

I have never felt so alone.

Scrubbing my body free from hazedous crime.

The work of a day upon me. Crying in the shower, holding the laver.

Scrubbing from head to toe, trying to renew yourself, to make the pain go away.

Thinking only of you, as I hit the floor, crying sobbing, unable to endure, these countless days without you here. I wish you could hear my scream, my silent stream of tears.

All I want is for you to hold me, to return to me everyday.

I dont care what women you see in between so long as you at the end.
So long as you return to me.

Our World is ending, burning.- a random poem found

From mountains,To trees

To highways with leaves

I will be there through thick and thin

I am your love love, your twin.

Mother earth is always here,

I will always be there.

So long as there is oxygen in this world

Smokey skies make me sad

The oxygen is running low.

So so is our glow.

-By anonymous

Poem

Just thought I would share this with everyone.

My friend wrote it for me.

Through the woods a girl came sadly.

Something broken in her chest.

She had dared to love another.

Alas, no better than the rest.

Up my path the girl came gladly.

Something opened up my doors.

I longed to stop her bleeding heart.

And so I called her to my shores.

Those you trust will hurt you badly.

Something now I'm sure you see.

So drown your tears in me, my dear.

As you drown, my dear, in me.

People do not understand the hurt some people go through, the judge and ridicule without knowing those people. They do not know that they may be the last straw the broke them.

My friend tried to commit suicide a few days ago, because of the way he is treated by people that do not know him, I personally would not do that, but it hurt badly to see him so down. I am here for you darling, loving you the way you are. Keep that head up, always here for you.

Dear blog,

This is my fisrt entry, of what i hope will be many.

I have always wanted a place to share all my ideas, thoughts and memories.

However with social networking as it is these days, it is hard to share this without using a different pen name. As you never know who is reading, your every word.

Every word that I will say, will be honest and true. Even if that means by writing will be crude at times even cruel.

Now a bit about me,

I am a seventeen year old girl, just finishing her school exams, which I should be studying for right now. I am brunette, petite, but with amazing curves (which causes problems sometimes, more about that later), I generally appear confident and full of life, no matter what I feel inside.

I fit into many different groups, from the stoners to the nerds; I love to help people, being an educational psychologist, being my future goal and career. I enjoy writing, drawing, just generally expressing myself.

I am a hopeless romantic at heart, but am now trying to keep a wall up, as I am trying to mend a broken heart.

I come from a family of four, of which I am the oldest. I have two sisters, of ages twelve and three, and a younger brother of only 10 months. All of us are full blood siblings, and I live at home with my parents.

During this year, I aim to recite the past, to learn lessons for the future, I will seperate my blog entries into two sections, the now, and the past, as well as random entries that will not really fit anywhere.

For now, goodbye,

[I should really do some study]